novocainThe door is shut, but I still see through it. I know the happenings, and I know the secret, and I never want to go home. Love is obsolete, life is obsolete, and I have not been numbed yet.Your hands spread over my body with a lust not inspired by me, and it makes me vomit. Im violated and raped all together with consent. I know your secret, I know your thoughts; they hurt me, and youre so ignorant.Your pride and selfishness expects so much from me, and if I do not fulfill, if I do not back down, you question your love for me. I walk on shards of glass, but you do not stop to carry me across.I left it all and gave it all to you, and you betrayed me. But you dont think like that; you dont see it. Im trapped inside this box with you, but by now its become my security, and Im scared to leave.