novocainThe door is shut, but I still see through it. I know the happenings, and I know the secret, and I never want to go home. Love is obsolete, life is obsolete, and I have not been numbed yet.
Your hands spread over my body with a lust not inspired by me, and it makes me vomit. Im violated and raped all together with consent. I know your secret, I know your thoughts; they hurt me, and youre so ignorant.
Your pride and selfishness expects so much from me, and if I do not fulfill, if I do not back down, you question your love for me. I walk on shards of glass, but you do not stop to carry me across.
I left it all and gave it all to you, and you betrayed me. But you dont think like that; you dont see it. Im trapped inside this box with you, but by now its become my security, and Im scared to leave.